MaKe iT Up aS YoU Go aLoNg
AlOt of stuff has happened since i last posted...... i'll break it down for ya *wikki wikki* basically got married.... that's it. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA and its driving me crazy, marriage is so over rated i don't know why people get married in Lorna's perfect world everyone would just be friends and the world would be consistently populated by llama's who chewed only the best grass. Serious these are my words of wisdom for today DON'T DO IT unless of course you are super ready and by super ready i mean your standing in that aisle, your a second customer away from being served ready and your happy with the bargain you've grabbed ready, cant be anymore ready then that, i think when i went shopping and bought my goods i paid using credit and now i'm in for 60 years of DEBT!!!!!!
No NoNsEnCe kInDa gAl!
HMmmmMmMM..... You know the only thing that annoys me about blogs is the public exposure it attracts whilst not being one to gossip i do tend to be very opinionated....inwardly opinionated though, ive read some things on other peoples blogs thats have made me kind of wonder whether or not they realise how stupid they are being, i'll give you an example...i have to becareful here all i'll give away what people i'm talking about....nah i wont it just makes me mad is all, hey DaMiEn lEiTh won Australian Idol yeah yeah good for him but i was hoping Jess would she's so pure and transparent you can tell she'll get a record deal anyways, they all do! Church was good tonight i like Valeries style of preaching its like sitting through an alcoholics anonymous meeting (dont ask why) she's great very cutting edge, gives it to you straight i like that because you dont have time to think. I think people need to be given things straight, no tip toeing around the issue just tell them how it is, these days especially, i read somewhere about people who grew up in the church becoming all self righteouss and independent saying oh we were so sheltered, now we can really live and experiment and broaden are thinking and im thinking you poor thing, you should of given up your position to those people in countries like China who get maimed and killed for attending church illegally, people who appreciate being able to go to church, peoples ignorance just amazes me sometimes, they think they are really living because they have their own boundries their own freedom, with no sense of purpose blatently disregarding and turning their backs on all that they have learnt.....Amazing
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Anybody who told you to be yourself simply couldn't have given you worse advice...
Really sometimes all i want to do is stand on something high and relatively safe and scream at everyone, you know how some people are just totally and utterly rude, they disregard your feelings and make you feel really stupid. You know what word i despise? CUSTOMERS everytime i say it i just spit it out hissing and yuk and yeah ewwww i used to like people im having second and third thoughts about them now, its not just at work its everywhere, you go out of your way to do things for people, to compliment them, you go over and above your normal duties for people who just dont give a toss, couldnt care less even if you just jumped out infront of a bus for them nah nothing they just find something else to complain about. Its funny though when people ask why do you stuff for them then if they dont care i say i really dont know its a profound sense of obligation you see, its really hard being a christian sometimes, you find yourself putting up with things and doing things and not really knowing why you just feel you have to, no i wouldnt say have to actually i dont know what to say to questions like that, its like cleaning your room without being asked you know, you know your parents will be pleased with you i guess its like that with Jesus.....
These childhood memories - I have them often, but can usually keep them under control with the use of drugs.
Hmmmmmmmmmm What to say .......... I found my old diary yesterday, it was a weird feeling though when i started reading it i found myself thinking "tis not mine, tis the work of the devil" no no not really i didnt think that but it was an unrecognisable unfamiliar feeling like the events that were written in them had been experienced by someone other then me , i could'nt remember most of them but like seriously why would you want to remember what you ate for dinner on the something of the something ......beats me.
Maybe i should tell you about a secret letter ooooooo son yeah thats rufus, i can start a desperate llamawives program and this is how it will begin, the title "ThE LeTtEr" first scene, She cant sleep , restless nights hound her, there is an urgency heavy and burdensome, she has someone on her mind, she cant forgive herself for judging, she needs to write her feelings down on paper, she spends weeks perfecting the paragraphs the content and the context, hoping not to agitate of offend, she reads it over and over again pretending she is the other person receiving it for the first time. After much thought she seals it, says a few words and ..........leaves it under her frickin bed gees i should really post that......any way will the person receiving it forgive and forget or will bitterness and rage prevail stay tuned for next weeks episode....... Pretty good huh, no sugar coating my situation lol it is true im the one writing the letter ill have to keep you posted with the outcome
RiGhT On tArGet
Oh my cleavers, i was about ready to scream at work today i tell you, people ask you the most stupidest most ridiculous questions, it just really is getting abit much, i can handle angry customers and the business side of things but customers who get you to do things that would only usually take a person 2 mins to do, they make you end up spending half n hour just explaining to them what they have just asked you to do and after that you've still gotten nowhere. MEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRR BEGEEEEEEEEEEEEEER Ummmm yeah anyway go Target!
Faster than a Lilly goat
You know it's funny, you dont plan on getting married til your like what is it these days er 50? lol and then WHAM it just happens. It's hard work trying to organise a wedding thats why you have to have the perfect drees and then it doesnt matter if anything else goes wrong.
Its also hard trying to decide what flippin dress to wear because you dont want to be looking in the photo albums years later and totally oh my goshing everything especially the dress because the dress is the magna in the fique, the popo in the dum its what makes the wedding a wedding. At the end of the day though you spare a thought for the person that your marrying and you forget about the dress, the detail the organising and realise how blessed you are to be in love!
I have come to a conclusion...I am going to die either very old or very bored
Nothing ever happens, everything is the same .... I feel a song coming along.... I ve come to realise that pondering is a very bad thing indeed especially deep ponderage, there are different types you know and ive been doing ponderage type 3 extremely dangerous and it hasn't been about anything in particualr either which makes it no longer controllable. I think i have OCD i'm way to analyitical it drives me insane! Is there a point to this mindless babble.... Im thinking not so ill just go now
Bliss....Not all it's cracked up to be!
Bliss, something i havent yet experienced....... i had a really bad today (yes this is an EMO moment) you know when you feel the worst you could possibly feel in this lifetime and nothing bad to come would ever compare to it but then wait a moment it happens! well that happened today.
Trust is a very special gift between two friends, two siblings, parents or partners so when it is broken it takes forever to repair it and thats all well and all but what happens if whilst in the process of being repaired your now restored little ounce of trust that has just been brought back is emptied yet again? Iv'e given up hope of actually finding a person on this earth that is completely trustable, im in agreement with ones self that only a heavenly being can give that security to you, imagine falling of a bridge without a bungee cord and being told that you will be caught somehow, placing complete trust is like placing a bet only this feels different because you know this time that you will be caught no matter how unlogical or how scientifically impossble it is, and then wam your caught and you now know that you have found something special something one in billion, something thats yours!
If you havent figured out yet what is i have, pick up that dusty old forgotten bible and start reading it, maybe its not your thing maybe bad experience will stop you but what do you have to lose?
Evening news is where they begin with 'Good evening', and then proceed to tell you why it isn't.
Its soooooo quiet at the moment....well apart from the dog snoring, im at home all alone and last night i watched the Boogey man with Matt so ive been looking in my closet every 5 minutes,,,,you know just incase. I have to say the content of the movie wasnt very fullfilling but it was interesting how the Boogeyman actually came to exist, when the guy in the movie was young he was laying awake in his room at night looking around at everything he considered scary and so the monster he created was actually a collection of his thoughts, he made it up and then it became real to him, It made me think about my paranoid outlook on life, half the time im only paranoid becasue an idea will pop into my head or ill see something that has no direct effect on my life whatsoever, yeah sounds quite stupid now that ive put font to screen. Aswell as being quiet its flippin cold too! Oh yeah Heavens geese and Hells flamingos was awesome, it was a nice change acting a scene then standing still for two hours as an angel besides i dont think i made a good angel anyway, i cant hold a straight face for long, unless im getting yelled at.....oh no no even then its still pretty hard, especially when mum is yelling at me... she has a funny face
Ive been feeling abit school sick recently, you know how you see all the schoolies walking down the road with their friends and stuff, i kinda get jealous cos then i start remembering how good i had it when i had my two best friends . I saw one of them the other day she came through my checkout at work and when i saw her it made me feel like crying because she has grown up so much yet she was the same Kerry i had spent 5 years with, the Kerry i had thrown tooth picks at, yeah it was a weird feeling. Enough mushy peas, im going to go now and maybe check my closet again
